Falling, alone, constantly. Not a hand in sight to grab hold of, To pull me back, to pull me close. Unseen, unheard, unwanted, unloved. Alone in a world of people moving in slow-mo. Trapped in the abyss of loneliness, Invisible, barely here. Barely me.
I’m at a crossroads, afraid, unsure of myself and the path I’ve taken, sanity unraveling with every wrong step, Lost and alone, wandering aimlessly in search of peace looking for the happiness promised at birth.
It’s when I’m all alone, on quiet nights with nothing more than the thoughts and memories of moments past of all the times I wished would last long past forever all faded and distant like the stars I count one by one with hopes of spotting your soul and smile dancing between them, glimmers ofContinue reading ““Dear Sandy…” by Cortney Joseph”
It’s been some dark days, Months of confusion, tears clouding my eyes When I want nothing more than to move past crying. It’s been some lonely nights, Weeks of seclusion, pain tearing my heart apart Because I want nothing more than to hold you in my arms.
You’re still gone, And I’m left to spend my days wondering when you’ll be home. And the nights tick on by, I’m lost and alone. It’s when I miss you the most. You’re still gone, And the clouds have gone gray, flowers no longer bloom. And the space I made for you is just anContinue reading ““Untitled (5/25/21)” by Cortney Joseph”
Red cup filled to the rim, Tears hitting the table as I stare blankly into space. My soul’s so lost, heart’s full of pain, Nothing could numb this more than a glass of crown And a dance in the rain. Nothing can heal me more than shot after shot, And a truthful talk as hardContinue reading ““Date In The Rain” by Cortney Joseph”
** Words from 13-year-old Cortney that still resonate deeply with 30-year-old Cortney. _______ Mind if I sit here for just a moment? I wanna … talk to you, for just a while. I know it’s been a while, I know I never visit. I just…. I find it so hard to accept, understand. I can’tContinue reading ““Whispers Through Heaven” by Cortney Joseph”
A few years ago, in an attempt to get over the great dislike I have for my own voice (I still hate my voice because it’s too manly for my liking), and before making numerous attempts to get over my camera shyness by jumping on camera; I began doing voice recordings of my poetry. ItContinue reading ““Wishing” (Audio) by Cortney Joseph”
It’s been months of sleepless days and nights, and the tears still fall in the darkness and light. I wander and wonder what life is now, to go on without you, still don’t know how. Cortney Joseph
lying in the dark, at hours past midnight i feel lost, alone. afraid. try as I might, i can’t stop myself from falling prey, trapped with the demons. they’re in my head. overwhelming worries, they overpower my faith, and I stumble as tears blind me, as strength evades, chaos ensues.