How is it possible to still be so overcome by and overwhelmed with grief, with loneliness after so much time has passed? So many hours, days, weeks, months, and even years? And how does it simultaneously feel as if it’s all just one big dream, or nightmare? Logically, I know there can be no timeContinue reading “Late Night Thoughts”
In my dreams, I have searched far and wide, For the sight of you, Just once more, for a moment more. For the chance to talk, For the chance to hold you close, To express my gratitude, give thanks For the time I had, To be in your presence To have been loved by you.Continue reading ““Untitled 3/26/22” by Cortney Joseph”
There have been so many things on my heart and mind as of late. So much that it’s starting to make a bit of sense as to why I’ve been feeling so stuck and stagnant. I hold on to so much fear and doubt, while simultaneously holding on to this idea that I have toContinue reading “a little random.”
I needed somewhere to capture these thoughts, to hold these feelings, to house these memories, these dreams and nightmares that won’t free me. I needed somewhere to be me without judgement, to speak my mind, clear my heart of all the emotions silently tearing me apart. Here’s where I bare it all as the theContinue reading ““Somewhere (The Intro)” by Cortney Joseph”
Falling, alone, constantly. Not a hand in sight to grab hold of, To pull me back, to pull me close. Unseen, unheard, unwanted, unloved. Alone in a world of people moving in slow-mo. Trapped in the abyss of loneliness, Invisible, barely here. Barely me.
It’s been some dark days, Months of confusion, tears clouding my eyes When I want nothing more than to move past crying. It’s been some lonely nights, Weeks of seclusion, pain tearing my heart apart Because I want nothing more than to hold you in my arms.
… my whole world is still crumbling and falling around me. I could ramble off the titles of a million and one songs, and all will be applicable to what life for 365 days without my little brother has felt like. Each day is supposed to get better, easier; but truthfully, you’re just waking upContinue reading “One Year In And It Feels Like…”
It’s been months of sleepless days and nights, and the tears still fall in the darkness and light. I wander and wonder what life is now, to go on without you, still don’t know how. Cortney Joseph
I think of you, dream of you, wonder where you are right now. I turn in circles, looking for you at every corner, wonder when will be the moment you walk in. I miss you, and I need you, hoping that I cross your mind as each day passes. I dream ofContinue reading ““Untitled : 6/13/2020” by Cortney Joseph”
time seems to have stopped, life frozen in place. yet it feels as if an eternity has passed since i’ve seen your face. i find myself lost in sorrow and tears, day after day. wonder if you’ve found peace in the heavenly fields where you lay.