We’re not supposed to question, but… there’s still so much I’ve yet to understand, so much that doesn’t sit right. And it probably never will. Why me, left with this broken heart, and… these constant tears falling, this aching pain replaying daily, tearing me to pieces day after day. Why a constant reminder of what’sContinue reading ““Broken Thoughts” by Cortney Joseph”
I needed somewhere to capture these thoughts, to hold these feelings, to house these memories, these dreams and nightmares that won’t free me. I needed somewhere to be me without judgement, to speak my mind, clear my heart of all the emotions silently tearing me apart. Here’s where I bare it all as the theContinue reading ““Somewhere (The Intro)” by Cortney Joseph”
Falling, alone, constantly. Not a hand in sight to grab hold of, To pull me back, to pull me close. Unseen, unheard, unwanted, unloved. Alone in a world of people moving in slow-mo. Trapped in the abyss of loneliness, Invisible, barely here. Barely me.
I’m at a crossroads, afraid, unsure of myself and the path I’ve taken, sanity unraveling with every wrong step, Lost and alone, wandering aimlessly in search of peace looking for the happiness promised at birth.
It’s been some dark days, Months of confusion, tears clouding my eyes When I want nothing more than to move past crying. It’s been some lonely nights, Weeks of seclusion, pain tearing my heart apart Because I want nothing more than to hold you in my arms.
You’re still gone, And I’m left to spend my days wondering when you’ll be home. And the nights tick on by, I’m lost and alone. It’s when I miss you the most. You’re still gone, And the clouds have gone gray, flowers no longer bloom. And the space I made for you is just anContinue reading ““Untitled (5/25/21)” by Cortney Joseph”
Red cup filled to the rim, Tears hitting the table as I stare blankly into space. My soul’s so lost, heart’s full of pain, Nothing could numb this more than a glass of crown And a dance in the rain. Nothing can heal me more than shot after shot, And a truthful talk as hardContinue reading ““Date In The Rain” by Cortney Joseph”
** Words from 13-year-old Cortney that still resonate deeply with 30-year-old Cortney. _______ Mind if I sit here for just a moment? I wanna … talk to you, for just a while. I know it’s been a while, I know I never visit. I just…. I find it so hard to accept, understand. I can’tContinue reading ““Whispers Through Heaven” by Cortney Joseph”
A few years ago, in an attempt to get over the great dislike I have for my own voice (I still hate my voice because it’s too manly for my liking), and before making numerous attempts to get over my camera shyness by jumping on camera; I began doing voice recordings of my poetry. ItContinue reading ““Wishing” (Audio) by Cortney Joseph”
It’s been months of sleepless days and nights, and the tears still fall in the darkness and light. I wander and wonder what life is now, to go on without you, still don’t know how. Cortney Joseph