It’s been months of sleepless days and nights, and the tears still fall in the darkness and light. I wander and wonder what life is now, to go on without you, still don’t know how. Cortney Joseph
I think of you, dream of you, wonder where you are right now. I turn in circles, looking for you at every corner, wonder when will be the moment you walk in. I miss you, and I need you, hoping that I cross your mind as each day passes. I dream ofContinue reading ““Untitled : 6/13/2020” by Cortney Joseph”
A bottle a day keeps the heartache away, Or so I thought I heard someone say. Each sip reopens freshly healed wounds, drowning out good memories, clouding my mind with the pain of what will never be. Each sip leaves me clamoring for the return of a life now gone, stammering over sorrow filledContinue reading ““A Bottle A Day” by Cortney Joseph”
I don’t like to be a burden on others. And people will tell you all day long that it’s no problem, that you’re not bothering them; whatever, everybody gets tired of hearing about other peoples’ problems eventually. So, with that thought always in my mind, I keep just about everything I feel to myself. Lately,Continue reading “Going Through It.”
Grief is such a weird emotion, and I dont know how it affects others but for me it has taken a mental and physical toll on me. Some days I am perfectly fine. I feel good, confident, and I feel great that I am able to smile and laugh again in any capacity that IContinue reading “A Moment To Breathe… And Think.”
In secrecy we meet, dangerously aware of the troubles we greet. Carelessly giving in to temptation week after week. To others we belong, but the feelings shared between us are far too strong. We can’t let go, no matter that we both know this life we lead is wrong.
I find it hard to put into words the changes I’ve felt come over me. It’s been scary, but amazing. It’s been stressful, but empowering. It’s been bubbling within my mind and soul, pushing a stronger and wiser woman to the top. It’s been calming. It’s been peaceful. It’s been God.
There has been a definite change in me and the way that I feel, think, speak, and act lately. (This does not mean that I don’t still have ‘weak’ moments, as I had one bright and early this morning.) While I have always believed in God and known that He is with me at ALLContinue reading “Newly Restored Faith & The Struggle.”
So, I’ve finally reminded myself that I’ve been doing a little too much playing around. And by ‘playing around’, I mean not putting my talent to use. Doubting myself entirely too much. And just being plain old LAZY. I’ve been telling myself that I have to stop using these sad and depressed moods of mineContinue reading “Work In Progress, #1 (An Update)”